Some more items I did up for a purchase.  Let me know if you're interested in ordering something.

T-Shirts are $10.00
Mouse Pads are $8.00
Medium Totes are $10.00

 


   

Just some of the book marks I plan on selling at Otakon.  More to come ^^


Kurenai, Temari, Sakura, Gaara, Hinata

Hehe, I caved the other day and bought a beta fish which we named Marty.  WHY?  Well because Ileana liked it!  We haven't had a beta in ages and I think they're so pretty so I had to get another one.  Plus it helped curve Ileana's issue of not getting something at the pet store, she wanted a bird.  I'm not against it since we've had one in the past and still have the cage and such but I wont take care of the birds cage (hubby's job).  I told her to ask her dad which she did and being the daddy I know Alan is, he said no, HAHAHA!  So we got Marty.

Anyhow I was a bit worried since we've had him for a few days and I hadn't noticed him eating.  WELL, he's eating now!  Little bugger was a vacuum cleaner sucking up all his food as soon as I fed him this morning.  I was like HAH!!! I knew you were hungry!!  He's really cute tho :3

Also Ian, my son, was being a goober last night tripped while running on the couch and smacked his face onto the arm.  He looks like I took a whip to his face, sigh!  Alan's been off work again due to being sick and man he sounds like a dieing man.  No voice, droopy eyes, and hacking around the house!  EWWWWWWWWWWWW!

Well that's the latest in our house!

It's that time again, the time where I stop and look at what I've done over the last few months and such. I'm pissed honestly, I wont go into details why but it's affecting my drawing and well I'm not happy with a few things. I'm currently, stressed, annoyed, worried, tired, and frustrated. I'm trying to catch up on commissions so I can get started on cracking out some new work for Otakon which I hope to attend. But AS USUAL, I'm reminded of my lack in skills and how awesome other artists are. It leaves me wondering if attending the con really is something I should do. I'll go no matter what but I'd like to participate in the artist alley, but when I look back I'm not sure if it's what I should be doing. Theres a shit load I need to learn and my cg skills are not up to par. Shrugs, not sure what to really say since I know I shouldn't compare and doing so only makes things worse. Not to mention that I know we all have different tastes and I like different styles as well.

Oh well, just another one of those journals where I have to rant where not to many people follow ^^ Leaves me feeling a bit better and such. I may post some wip pics of prints I'll be doing but not decided yet ^^ and sorry to those that do follow me here for not posting anything in eons. Been a busy time in my life!

Yeah so if you don't like the chubby men...don't look!  Tis my OC Stepan!  I held a contest over at Y gallery and one of the winners asked for a pic of him ^___^ so here's the sketch.  Still need to ink it tho!

http://gallery.countlessdreams.com/images/A_4/1/9/6/16914/Come_Here_a_Sec_ddece.jpg

So I'm just going to ramble a bit on here about some insecurities I'm feeling currently.  I figure not too many pple keep their eyes on my LJ so I'm free to be a little bit more open and not worry that people think I might be fishing for compliments.  I'm human like any other person and yeah I have them and well I feel that when and if I post a journal in the art communities about this, well that people think I'm looking for compliments and such to boost my ego.  I'm not trust me!  But I just find it helps sometimes to just post things and thoughts.  Kinda helps clear out the cobwebs and such.

So basically lately I've been really insecure about my work.  Yes it's nice getting compliments and well I've had a few new people watch me in various galleries so again that must be a good thing.  But that doesn't help my insecurities.  It always boils down to some type of comparison and I'm sure it's cause we're our worst critic.  I'd probably really like my work if I didn't know it was mine lmao!  But I do and well in knowing I also compare (not style....I like my style) but skill level.  I'm just not there and I feel that in some ways I'm falling behind and or not progressing.  This could be due to a lot of things but well this is what's been floating in my head for a few weeks. 

I'd gone through this funk a week or so back and I'm sure these thoughts were the trigger.  It also doesn't help that my birthday is within a few months and well I'm not getting any younger.  I've also taken a look at several points these last few months and just notice a lack of creativity.  I feel my drawings are stiff and sometimes a bit lifeless.  I've been told otherwise but remember this is the way I see my own work.  So yeah I've had the Envious monster creep on me for the past month or so and I honestly hate it.  I don't want to change my style I just want to gain more skills.  I want to improve!  I know I have no doubt but there's always room to improve.  I draw and work on my art EVERY day!  Not just to push myself but it's something I need and enjoy!  But well it's hard to push the insecurities away when there's a world full of amazing artists and worse...younger.  They have more time than what I have or will ever have.  Guess that means I have to work a little harder for now...hehehe.

Anyways.....I don't plan to quit, HAHAHA!!!!  NEVER!!!!!!  But that doesn't mean I'm not supposed to have the worries and such that comes along with life.  So if you read this, sorry I bored your ass but well like I said....gotta air out the brain from time to time.  Love on ya guys!

Well possibly!  My anatomy on girls is like non existant so I'm not sure how far I'll take it but I did design 2 OC's to play with when I do start doing more of them.  Macy and Sarah!  Macy is a female vamp with a hefty appetite for love making and feeding.  So enters Sarah, they shy full figure girl with low self esteem and such.  Macy always makes her feel good and believe it or not Macy is highly jealous of Sarah.  NO TOUCH from anyone.  Umm let's see, Macy only likes women due to past expierences and Sarah is bi.  Macy is her first female lover and so far so good ^^  Ok that's about it for them, just thought I should post something here since I tend to forget to ^^'



  

I'm just going to do a small update since well I never seem to post any sketches on here any more and I'm always slow at updating.

First up is WoW Sketch.  Yeah I haven't finished this since I've never played the game and always feel weird about attempting to do some art from it.  But I really like the trolls and thought I would give it a shot. 
( Nude Image )

Next is some actually Naruto Yuri.  I love the boys but I do like some of the girls too and thought I should do some for a change ^___^  I'm sure you can guess who is who!
( Nude Image - Yuri )

OMG I swear my husband get's sick like clockwork.  The word "Autumn" is mentioned and he automatically falls ill.  Lasted for about 2-3 days and then behold THE KIDS!!!!  Ugh Ian was sick for about 6 days with fever and all and then as he started to get better Ileana decided to catch it.  She was worse since she was painful and EWWWWW the runny nose!  Then the kids were generous enough to give it back to DAD!

So I'm the only healthy one but my sleep has been taken from me.  Every morning for the past week I've wakened to find a sick coughing husband, a coughing and sniffiling daughter, me, a pissed off son that for some reason thinks he can have my KING size pillow!  WTF.....I know we have a king size bed but dammit......doesn't matter the kids TAKE IT ALL!  So this morning my daughter was nice enough to force her way in between the hubby and my spot to lay in front of my face and cough away. GRRRRRRRR!  So I roll over and am gifted with FEET, which kick!  Shit man....no wonder I'm tired 1/2 the time and I woke up with a headache....but the headache you know that comes with a cold.  How do I know this you ask....cause my fn ears feel funny too!  SIGH!  I'm always the better one about not getting sick....but damn when you have no where to hide you're bound to catch it.

So I keep yelling at my hubby that I'm sticking him and Ileana in a room and quarantining their asses to protect myself!  Ian would get locked up with them too but well he's getting better and heheheheh he's cute when he begs! 

Just an entry for me to keep track of all the commissions that I am currently doing as well as the going price just now.

I'm in serious need of help so if anyone is interested in a commission feel free to comment!  I'll make another entry soon with more commission samples!

Pencil Sketch $2 (Xtra chara +$3)

Digital Sketch [lineart] $4 (Xtra chara +$2)

Full Colored no background $8

2 Characters $15 colored with possibly simple design type background

The List (updated 9-18-08)
Please note that the list is not in a particular order and commissions are completed by artistic mood.

1. ZeroZeroQuatre (Y!) - Demo and Kat (sketching)
2. zhem1x5 (Y!) - Kakashi and ?? (Inking soon)
3. kiterie - Banner (inking)
4. YaoiSmutMaster (Y!) - Bleach FA (sketching), Inu Yahsa FA (sketching), Gakuen FA (inking), Mein Liebe FA, Naruto FA (sketching), Naruto FA (in que)
5. Nemo (Y!) - Stripper (in que)
6. LegatoLies (Y!) -
7. Sidious (Y!) - 5 OC Sketches (2 half sketched)
8. thecatsmeow (DA) - OC ref sheet (coloring)

Qued Commission List (more can be added)

1. zhem1x5 (Y) - Naruto FA
2. Derek -2 OC together
3. essenceofthedark (Y) -  OC (sketching but qued for inking and coloring)
4. elfendream (Y)  - (waiting for more info)

So the minions finally started school.  Well not really school since it's head start but they're at least gone for about 4 hours a day four times a week!  THANK GOD!!!!!  I really never thought it would happen.  Anyhow the kids were so excited and well all was well until Ileana had to get on the bus, well then the waterworks started and I made damn sure not to cry in front of her but she was so pitiful on the bus waving bye with tears on her face.  Ian on the other hand didn't care one bit.  It was all new to him and he was super excited!  So the bus drives off and I teared for all of ummm 3 mins and then it was like WOW no noise!  The cats even loved the relaxing time lmao!  Anyhow all is well and when they got back home all we saw were smiles but I do have to say it's so damn odd not having them around when for the past 3 years they were always, and I mean ALWAYS with one of us.  Well that's the update on them so we'll see what new adventures they get up to!

So over the last few weeks, dealing with surgery and some other personal issues I've discovered I'm in an fn slump!  I seriously don't need this just now.  I have commissions to get through and not to mention some art I want to do for myself.  I hate it!  I hate getting into one of these cause it just affects everything!  I relaxed yesterday but still felt drained and no real motivation to draw.  Started a few pics but nothing I'm overly happy with.  Having the kids using me as their personal gym doesn't help and well things just keep getting better.  I did finally get a sketch book so I can start sketching away when ever the urge hits.  The problem isn't not having ideas, it's not being able to get it on paper the right way.  Anyhow I wont keep dragging this out cause well, it might just stick with me the entire day and I'm hoping that I'll start to crawl out of it soon enough.

Ugh, now I just found out Michael Turner has passed!  It's not going to be a good day!  He was by far one of my most fav artists out there and was a BIG inspiration to me!  He will be missed!

Yeah so I really thought I wouldn't be back on until tomorrow or the day after. Hmmm, how do I feel? Actually GREAT when I'm sitting. They ask you to grade the pain from 1-10, sitting it's a 1-2. But when I stand holy shit it jumps to like an 8! It's so much better to sit but doing the potty thing is so not cool. Also I'm tired and sleepy, and yes if the kids weren't screaming like my husband was killing them I'd be sleeping instead of on here. But I thought I'd let you guys know that I made it through just fine and will be living off of percacet for the next few days.

For those that wished me best, THANK YOU SO MUCH! Love ya guys and I'll be on and off now Right now I'm off to go crash, hehehe falling asleep as I type this ^////^

Commission Info
I am in need of some cash and I've mentioned this before. I'm offering sketches at about $3.00

Yeah trust me this is VERY RARE, but since I'm unable to sit at my pc just now I'm able to recline and sketch. So if you're interested....now is the time to hit me up on it. This will be for a limited time especially if I get a few takers. Please reply here or feel free to email me at no_demo_4u@hotmail.com (subject line should read commission info}.

Last note it's about $3 simply because it depends on what you ask for. I'll let you know of final price if it goes up or not before I do anything. Also this is for one character!

Payments via paypal preferred but if you want to send me a money order and such that's fine although you will not receive the final image until payment has reached me ^^

I'll draw smutt, girls, hybrids, shota, and probably anything else you may want. I WONT DRAW MECHA! Now's the chance to get a pic done by me if you like my work for almost nothing ^^

(((Sample sketch PLEASE NOTE NOT WORKSAFE!!!!!!!)))

Just wanted to let you guys know I'm off for my surgery.  I'll be back in a few days and hopefully will let all of you know how wonderful my insides will feel....lmao!

Also commissions are somewhat on hold since I'm not too sure how soon I'll be up an sitting at a pc to cg.  Sketches should be continuing but just wanted to keep everyone updated on what's happening.  Take care guys ^____________^